Thursday, February 24, 2005

so many ideas!

I have crafty ADD. I can't concentrate on one project because I always want to be going on to the next one. I've got so many projects and ideas going on, it's driving me crazy. Here they are in order of finishing deadlines.

  • adam's duffle bag
  • samples to advertise my sewing classes: pillowcases, tote bags, vest, blouse (not all right away, just the pillowcases and a tote bag before I leave for MI next month)
  • new samples for my tatting class board
  • pillowcases for wayne and jolee, sewn, embroidered, maybe with tatted or crocheted lace... I was iffy about this because it seems like a cheap wedding present, but they won't register and say they don't need anything, so pillowcase sets it is
  • some clothes for me, I really want new shirts
  • crochet patterns to sell on my site
  • the little angora hair wrap that I started and haven't finished yet
  • and on and on, lol

Things that are bothering me right now:

  • I can't figure out how to post pictures right in my blog. The crazy thing won't work even though I'm doing what it says.
  • My bucket hat looks like this: and I don't know if anyone would buy a pattern for that hat.

Things I'm happy about right now:

  • The living room is clean and all the bill statements from the last six months are organized and filed.
  • I get to sew today, and don't have to go to work.
  • It's beautiful outside!
  • I've got the cutest idea for his/hers pillowcases for wayne and jolee, and I'm excited because I think they'll love them.

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Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Hecklers belong in the Balcony

All went well, except for this lady who came and heckled my teaching and technique during the class. But she went away and my students liked me.

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double grr at blogger

It also just threw away all my carefull indenting and formatting. Doesn't blogger care about the proper form of an outline at all?!?

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grr @ blogger

I just wrote a huge post all about a bunch of stuff, but blogger ate it. Here it is in outline form.

I. Sleeping In
A. I wish Ben would sleep longer.
1. The alarm going off at four thirty sucks
2. Snooze hitting till five fifteen is morally wrong
3. He's loud and makes lots of noise and light.
B. I try to sleep after he's gone.
1. The cats are too loud.
2. I'm too much of a worrier.
C. I got up anyway today.
1. I don't work till eleven.
2. If I'm not going to sleep in, at least I'll have time to work on Adam's duffle bag.

II. Tatting Class
A. My class starts today for sure.
B. I'm more excited than nervous today.
1. Teaching three students will be good practice for my sewing classes which will be bigger
a. I'm a chatterer, so it'll be good to get an idea of how quickly two hours goes while teaching something
2. It'll be fun to meet my students and see how much I can teach them the first day

III. I'm going to plan for my sewing classes a little while I'm at work today.
A. I work alone this afternoon.
1. Things go quickly if Mike is around to talk to, and there are customers.
2. The afternoon drags on forever if there's no one to talk to and not many customers
3. Either way, I'm going to plan some things
a. What classes I can teach for sewing
b. What skills I can use for each project and what order to teach them
c. What projects work best for each level
4. This is okay because I never take my break on Tuesday, so I deserve it.

IV. Also, there was something about sewing and needle work being my passion and how I have to claim it even if that means leaving a more secure job to be a teacher with no garuntee of having students or getting the rate I'd like.

Take that, you post eating blogger thing.

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Monday, February 21, 2005

I'm no good at witty titles

I talked to the fabric dept. people on Saturday, and they said that a sewing class would definately work at Craftmart. And that I should do different levels of classes too. So, not to count my chickens, but I think I might be able to make almost as much teaching sewing as I do framing. And it'll be fewer hours and so much nicer. I hate cutting the big pieces of glass. Makes me feel like I'm handling dynomite or something. Better hope I never get a job handling dynomite. Anyway, I'm going to start outlining my sewing classes and putting together supply lists and such. I'm going to have my them start in April, but I want to get details squared away asap so I can advertise them and get people signed up through the rest of Feb and March.

Ben's making dinner today, and I hear a lot of swearing and banging coming from the kitchen. It's easier on my nerves to just do it myself.

We don't know how to take care of a yard made of rocks. That is pathetic. The police keep warning us to get rid of the weeds. We are the trashy neighbors. We went out yesterday and pulled out half the yard, other half is set for every night this week, and I haven't been able to walk normal all day. I'm not looking forward to do it again tonight.

I'm also not looking forward to the other activity we've got planned for tonight. Bills and budgeting. Yuck.

My bucket hat turned out to be more of a Henery Jones hat, so I can't decide whether to rip it back and try again or whether the pattern might sell as it is.

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Friday, February 18, 2005

Ah, Friday

I'm not sure why I like Fridays so much still. I just know I have to go back to work tomorrow after two great days of being at home. But still, I just like the feel of a Friday.

I'm having trouble with crazy point goings on with my bucket hat. Which is not supposed to be pointy but rounded. Who would have thought designing a cute little bucket hat could be so hard.
I will admit, I did only work on it for a few hours today and yesterday. I spent the rest of our tv time unravelling the rest of my thrift store angora sweater. It's going to be so pretty when I do something with it. I would make a really lacey summertime poncho-y thing for wearing over tank tops, but I'm pretty sure it would still be way too hot. Angora is like that. Even in a blend. Well, I think I'll work on my hat some more, maybe change the hook size. I love the yarn I'm using for it, and I just know that if I can get it right, I'll be able to sell the pattern. At least a few times.

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Thursday, February 17, 2005

Happy Quitting Day to Me!

I had such a good quitting day yesterday. Bill totally understood. I think he's secretly pretty happy about it, because now he can see if he can get someone who will work nights without fighting him on it. And I talked to the store manager too, just to make sure she heard it from me and that she understood that I'd liked working there and appreciated the job. She was very nice and supportive of me teaching there. And I spoke with the head of the classroom about sewing classes, and she said that they might want a beginner's sewing class there. I hadn't expected that at all, because they don't sell fashion fabrics, but there's interest from customers in a sewing class and learning to follow patterns and such. I have to speak with the dept head of fabric and see what she thinks, but it sounds very much like I could be teaching my sewing classes there as well as offering one on one lessons at home. The classroom at CraftMart can hold way more people than my sewing room can. Obviously, lol. That's cool, because in a two or three hour class of ten students, I'd make ten times as much as a one student class at home. hmm... maybe I need to rethink the pricing structure?

Today: A crochet bucket hat

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Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Long Day

Gosh, it was such a long day today. I worked all morning on the handout for my tatting class, after waking up about five times during the night to run to the bathroom. Glucophage is the devil. I was sick all day at work, running to the bathroom, this medicine really sucks because of the stomach troubles it gives. Work seemed to go so slowly, and I still don't feel like I got much of anything done. Then I sat waiting for my students to come for about half an hour till I checked my book and noticed that the first class is scheduled for the 22nd, not the 15th. Which is completely not what the girl in the classroom who called me said, but she did write it down, I just missed it. Then, Ben picked me up so I wouldn't have to ride in the dark and things are going pretty badly with his work right now, so he was grumpy. so, grr.

There that feels better, it's easier to just get complaints out of the way and out of my system. I've learned that complaining is just another way of showing fear, and I completely believe that. Because I have come down with a case of the fraidy cats today. I'm feeling a little nervous about telling my bosses that I'm quitting. Mostly because I hate feeling like a quitter or people making me feel like I've let them down. I'm just going to be honest and simple about it though, and let him know that it's not about the time off, and the biggest things that decided me were that I'd so much rather be doing so many other things, and that he needs to hire someone with availability that will work better for his scheduling. I guess another thing I'm feeling nervous about is the teaching. I know it's what I want to do. That and design. But I've never actually taught anyone tatting or sewing formally before. I've shown friends how to do stuff all the time, but that seems different somehow. I mean, I'm not completely set on making as much with these new projects as I do with my job, but I know I have to contribute to the income somehow, even if it's just to keep myself in yarn. I guess I'm afraid of trying and not getting anywhere, so I don't try as hard as I might. silly self fulfilling prophecy

Mostly because it makes me smile. And also because it's just about the best photo I've ever taken

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Monday, February 14, 2005


I'm feeling so full of life and have all sorts of plans now that I've decided to quit my job.
I'm starting a line of crochet patterns for sale in pdf format on my site. I've got a few patterns in mind to start out with. I'm thinking that considering the popularity of my flapper hat on craftster, I might do fairly well, selling the patterns for about 3-8 dollars each. It'll depend on what the final products are.
My tatting class is underway starting tomorrow. I have three students, yay! I hope it all goes well.
I am going to start teaching sewing classes here in my home. I have so many blessings, one of them being a great sewing studio room with a serger and an embroidery machine and digitizing software, I want to put them to use. I would love to teach people to sew, I think clothing sewing is so awesome and allows so much self expression, I want to share that with others. I think I can put up signs at joann's and craftmart and michael's, though I'll have to check with them all of course.
I'm so thrilled to be home again, I love being home and having things clean and having my routines and schedule for each day.
And no more huge terrifying pieces of glass!

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Wednesday, February 09, 2005

Identity Crisis

I seem to be struggling with my very Beppiness today.
I'm at a crossroads regarding my job that I've been coming to for a long time and haven't wanted to face. I don't want a "job". I want to do something that will nurture and fulfill me. is that thing, but I'm not sure what direction to take it or how to go about getting to the point where I'm making enough to make up for quitting my "real" job.
I've wanted to quit my job pretty much since I started, but today I was forced to start looking at quitting as a real possibility, because they want me to start working nights and are angry with me for the vacation time I want to take. I realize that a retail business needs employees that will work when the customers are there, and that they can't offer unlimited time off to their employees. But I need to be able to take time off with Ben when he can have it and not worry about my work schedule being in the way. And I need to spend time with my husband every day.
I realize that there are tons of couples who don't spend every evening together, and who don't see each other a lot. There are wives who don't try to be home when their husbands will be and who don't make dinner for them because there aren't kids to cook for.
I think that's sad. It's just not what I want my life to be. I'm happy cleaning and being at home. I'm happy when I don't have to work around a work schedule of my own to be able to be with Ben. I'm not happy working a job where I feel that I don't please the people I work with. A job that I've never been trained to do properly.
I've come to the point where I have to decide whether I can really do the down and dirty work it will take to make a financial success out of craft designing and selling and teaching. I want to. I'm not sure how.

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